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Skydiving in the City
05:36
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I feel you in this smog
Of course, you’re an American girl
Your skin, it melts like the screen on my back door
Your face is so pristine, it thaws my heartbreak
My baby’s toxic waste
Only my midnight drive
I can feel your heart barely confident as it beats heavy in my hand
You vanish to dust, I breathe you in
Won’t you forget my name in a second?
Our brains are faulty machines from armageddon
Won’t you come haunt me in my sleep
I need an extra boost of joy in this dead world
We’re killing off our children
We never even laid a finger on their face
I’m starving for a green patch of sweet grass
And some mud to wash it down
I’m sickened of all this attitude
Oh, you’re just so cool
I wish I can get a drink of your warm milk in a pool
I wanna hold you so bad, I'm incorrigible
Your lips they stick like glue, your tongue is like bubblegum
Let this heat wave mold us to the crust
I wake from my premonition, the century's brand new
I'm finished
The lights in my cubicle shine from the moments to come
I’ll leap out the window of this high-rise
It’s going to spread my guts all over the whole street block
Ah, you're going to shut me up
And when I've had enough of myself, we'll be making this right
Our mother Earth is ripe
Her mother Nature is on her way
She's going to tear up the sky, consume her face
And she will spit out the seeds
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I have a hole in the ground here where I live and breathe
And if you dig me out, I’ll burn like everyone else
I feel so alive in this place
I feel so aligned now
Let your body move until your bones feel sorry
I, by myself, get a little bit worried
A little bit jumpy, a heavy bit drugged up
I forged my years on perfecting my life but it all goes to show how wood gives you splinters
I'd rid the whole world of its plague but my enemies insist that I finish off this bowl
I see all of their names in lights
Their names colorblind
Sometimes my life becomes a mess
I’ll bring you home again
I am for all of the fame that you carry
With all these things that are different
And of all conflicts, I can take care of myself
Put me on your dish and feed your wedding vows
I see the beautiful people
Marching one by one on Beverly Hills
Strike home, tiny dancer
You think you're slick with all your pleasure
What's my fault with all of this?
You think you're perfect, Ms. Danger?
Oh no, it's you again
Striking up pain and perfect punctures with lousy plain maneuvers
Now blow
I fell in love with a medicine darling
Shotgun doctor, shotgun doctor
I called the truce two hours ago
Why are you still bleeding on my crimson rug?
You fell in love with my medicine darling
Shotgun doctor, shotgun doctor
You drugged yourself with my treaty letter
Wasted pain and plotted revenge
I, myself, get a little bit wasted
Running around with my pocketful of sunshine
You smoked the rest of the weed, man!
You must be crazy, everything will be obscured with faces
I'll rid the whole world a thousand years of fuckups and privilege
I see their names in lights off my mind
Sometimes my life becomes a mess
I’ll burn this home again
I am with you until the blood runs dry
With all these things that are different
And of all conflicts, I can take care of myself
Put me on your stage and do your closing bows
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So long these wasteful years of pain and sorrow in my gut
To all the ones who want a comeback, come and get some fun
My burning passion comes from inside of this rotting door
And I for one must count the days I spent here lying on this floor
These masochists can't get ahold of me while in this cage
I bit my teeth down, buried every single doubt I made
These crazy bombings in my heart mean nothing to my fears
So as I stare down there, my dissatisfaction can rise to here
Woah oh, this is exactly where I want to be
Woah oh oh, this is exactly where I need to be
This suffering pressure got me tied up in a tight knot
These people talk to me and think that I just own the lot
My therapist hates how I envisioned her in one of my songs
And even though you're right, I'll kill all your dreams to convince you you're wrong
And it all falls down
But it all adds up
I'll keep on running ‘til the secret's gone with what I found
I'm shunned by everyone I've trusted, who just stole my crown?
With closed fists and battle antics, my winning streaks grow from the wars I fought
I'll stand my grounds right here, what the hell did you expect from me?
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Painfully Please
03:19
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Wasting away my life in days, I swear and sit in patience
I prayed for God's whole might to smother me from where I stay
I break my chains and searched to do the right thing, overlord
I'm begging mercy on this stricken ground from where I lay
Why do I have to keep falling down just to start again?
Your pain is much accepted, you can have all say
I'm frantic, playing with the thought of you lay down by my side
With innards spilled from both ends, your murder spares my day
We came all this way just to fight
All my nightmares started to befriend me
And now I’m always giving in
Why do you bug me with your tenderness?
That's why I keep you all smothered up inside my laundry room, you call my bluff
Forgive me, I haven't used your face in a day
I want to watch you take this knife to your neck out of love
I’ve never felt so deprived from giving misery to you
Why do you keep me from living like this, why so tough?
We’ll never ever see the sun again, watch you break the chains
I feel your motions from a mile away, broken cuffs
We came all this way just to dance
All my nightmares started to befriend me
And they just tread on my innocence
Counting my life in days, I stay here dreading about her
My broken wish fuels the anarchy from here on out
I don’t know what I want to do with my life anymore
I cared about the way she walked, her company profound
Who would’ve done such a thing, I’m not a horrible crime?
The sirens blaring from a block away, no escape
I’ve wasted all my life, was all my pleasure worth it?
I wallow deep inside this hollow cave, here’s where I lay
We came all this way just to die
All of my daydreams started to depress me
As the Lord shepherds all my hate
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Obsession
06:06
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I’m afraid I’ll lose all consciousness
You say my name I snooze my consciousness
There's a quarrel with this emptiness
I can't let go of the emptiness
And after a while I break down
The thoughts are killing everything I have left
I don't know where I'll go when they leave me alone
Oh no, I fought a devil before
He was smoking in an alleyway and crashed a bottle over my head
How did the glass taste on my tongue?
How are you not even having fun?
Is it too late to get my refund?
And when it's all said and done, I'm glad you took your time to write this in pens and pills
Well what’s this obsession?
Worthless obsession
I’ll set this on fire
My rosary is on the ground
Well it’s on my life, I’m glad so what’s the use of it
I’m afraid I lost all consciousness
You said my name, I fought my consciousness
I hate myself and everything I'll stand for
Everything I'll stand for is just rage
And after a while I break down
How could I quarrel with such a fine specimen?
You haven't seen them 'til they walk out the front door
Never knew there would be so much gore
It's been a whole week since God left
My pupils dilate and my bones shrivel
My perfect teeth have been rotting since
And my room smells of decaying filth
Are you having fun yet?
Does this humor you, tough guy?
You're gonna get me riled up and rain a suppressing line of fire on both of our houses
I'm fallen from the ways of what we breed
Sorry I can't speak, hallelujah fantasy
I’ll set you on fire
With every inch, there is gasoline
I’ll find a way to cheer up this party
Break my foot
Shoot my leg
Bust my hip
Punch my gut
Crack my ribs
Tear my arm
Twist my neck
Pull my teeth
Bend my nose
Gouge my eyes
Shave my top
Eat my brain
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Dear Misery
07:08
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Dear Misery,
How proud are you feeling sending all of my pride far?
You were once a man that I could depend on, now you're all that I cannot imagine
On this Saturday, I bleed my heart out taking all that once was mine
You invade all this fear that I travel in, that's how you hide when my glasses fog up
We're the worst ones I know, I don't know anyone as mean as you can be
With your tortured smile and your handkerchief, you manipulate all my trauma
I will stay here alone, singing oh~
Now I start again with all of this Wednesday shredding all my notes to bits
You were nothing when you came into my space, now you are everything that you can handle
Break down the void again to speak to my demons, one by one they tear at the wounds
I will cower here for the rest of my days, I feel comfortable with neglect
You’re the worst one I loved, there is a place for me in the afterlife
Where the birds they chirp and they chant my name, and the cross is blessed in the sunshine
His approval’s harmony, singing oh~
I will meet with him on a future date
When my fate insists, I will leave this house and I’ll kill myself in a car crash
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Trainwreck
06:58
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Strike out the pain
I gain no fame
Life is so tame
Do it again
I found the son
He works in a sweatshop
I love him so
Keep going low
Rock bottom poor
I'm such a bore
I am with you
I'm bleeding for booze
With what I owe
You’ll never know
You give me change
I give no change
I always watch
With what you got
A petty thief
There is no grief
I sit alone
A dogless bone
These voices I'm hearing
They make me go tearing
I found a light
It ruined my insides
I’m feeling queasy
It's almost to easy
I'll make this mistake
I'm rotting with hate
You wanna take me out
We're both so foul, yes we are
Why the devil may care to assault you?
Counting every last insult you've asked for
I found peace in my bitterness
These walls consult you
Oh honey watch your mood, it’ll cost you every fate you have
How the heavens may guide you to shelter
When you don't know what you seek for closure
How dare you use my name in vain
Your mother loathes you
Carry on, you worthless slime before God shows you a lesson when he comes back
I'll say you were nothing but a broken miracle
You wait, when the light comes shed a tear for the epilogue
What I wouldn't give to feel this effect again
I don't want to wait another year for this
When did I go rogue?
I said you can come in
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Have It Your Way
07:28
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When I roam, I go nowhere
Where is all this dirt?
It doesn't matter what you feel
Innocence
It's been a year since I lost God
My nerves sting, ripping my scars in two
Pick apart my brain, just laugh and let the truth commence
Buddy’s got a new life
And buddy’s got a wife and child
And until he’s satisfied, he’ll leave his grief behind
Where I roam, I go away
I found a new path to living
It ends where me and you jump the cliff
You can have it your way
I fear that what you’ve cared about me was only in your head
What’s my problem?
You're a smile that will never defrost
And now we float away
Why I live is not your concern
Imagine inhaling poison
It’s what I do for years
Awful man
What a fear to live by yourself
Never had a chance in the world to wander
Grudges only work when you’re hurting, and the anger is a fuel
This is gonna tear me up
Scarlett’s gonna eat my soul
Stuck her needle through my brain and drugged me with her chemicals
When I roam, I go nowhere
Where is all my anguish?
I’m finally giving in
I'll be selfish nevermore
I fear the ones that care about me are only in my head
What’s the matter?
With scars that will never progress
Well now we know
No more
You can have it your way
I'm tired of making up excuses on behalf of my brain
Why so tired?
With open legs and slit arms
And down we go
Where do we go when we’re done
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I’ll watch you suffer as I did when you forget who I am
Memory loss is just so evil, now I'm driving straight for the damned
How's your game, how's your fame?
How's the way that you pray?
I'll decay in a moat while you decay in a bucket
March with the beat
Halt, feel, love, eat
Human goals are ignorant
I’ll watch you suffer as I did when you collide and hit the brakes
Medical bills never graced me, I could never dream to raise the stakes
When's my day, where's his face?
Will he ever shine, my saving grace?
You will never know how I felt when he turned away
Kick and screaming
Go part demon
Sun sets the dusk 2019, your message really torments my psyche
I’ll watch you suffer as I did when you can never take your last breath
When you're just as fucked as I am, you can almost taste your own death
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True faith waits for me by the staircase
Blue aura and a white flash of highlights
Obscure view of what a world we’ve died in
Legs lift me up to your sky
Rush of frequency in your cave
I can’t do this again
Who am I in your flesh and rot jaw?
Find you here in the lights that blind far
I can’t do this again, come find me
I can feel your space in my skull
This always goes over my head
I can’t listen, all I can do is just rage
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September Secrets
05:00
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I can see the sky spanning out for miles
Feel this space that I'm drifting, it's so foreign to me
Catch me in the fields to wander through the fog in this space
Feels so free to displace a world of face
I will never forget, what a day
Hunter, please take this toll away from me
She's just a girl, stay away from the scene
Hoping one day, I'll find my way out
Scarlett take your feet, drag it through the mud
I wouldn't have let you go if you didn't want to leave
I can see the powerlines stretching over this place
Where was all of this grace that was felt in my days
Spirits in a white haze, so amazed
Hunter, please take this sleep away from me
He's just a boy, fade away from the streets
Hoping soon, I'll find my way up
I can see a home scouting from afar
I would've seen myself with what I got with all this luck
Threw it all away with that fateful car crash that day
With all the pain that I've gained, there's so much I've lost
Now I'm lost in this maze, I'm afraid
Hunter, please take this grief away from me
You're just a man, pulled the plug and let me free
Hopefully in time, I'll find what I found
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